My Life, Tofino

heres something that inspires me, as a kid my family and i travelled to a place called tofino, it’s a small town in canada right by the ocean. Here solitude and deep thought was as prevalent as the thick rainforests that blanked the area. There was one single, shanty style hotel there, right on the sand, hardly high class accommodations, but thats what made the place. There weren’t many people in the town, in fact it only had a couple of restaurants and tourist attractions. This was more a refuge from the clash of daily life. Here you were hit with a dose of silence, so silent you could here the trees rustling in the wind, seal calls from the ocean, and thousands of crickets chirping throughout the nigh. It was a whole different sort of bliss, a happiness that didn’t involve popularity, having “cool” friends, and getting work done, i would imagine writers would flock to this area, to literally breath in inspiration.

Never in my life had i seen true darkness, although ive traveled significantly, its usually in a bustling city or urban setting, where street lamps and building lights rain throughout the city, here in tofino there were no lights at night, nothing, you couldn’t leave the house without a flashlight, which i loved, it was mystical at my young age. I got the best night of sleep in my life here. When i turned out the single light in my room, i was suffocated by dark, by absolutely nothing, i couldnt even see my hand when it touched my nose, i remember feeling like i had a blanket of darkness on, a weird thought but still true. I sleept so well.

I remember waking up a 5 in the morning for low tide. During low tide , the tide would pull out 2 miles. We could walk around were water would normally be 5 feet high, but at this rare, surreal time in the morning, we could go where no one goes, onto the seabed, where we found an abundance of sea stars, sands dollars, and weird washed up jelly fish, as i kid this was treasure hunt heaven. Time would stop during this point, i’d lose track of the future and the past, and just be in pure bliss.

Memories like this bring me to tears as i am now, knowing that if i returned it probably wouldn’t be the same, i cherish my memories like these, but i know theres more to come, in times of despair i look back and remind myself of moments like these, so beautiful and forever real in my memories, I will go back there one day, maybe when i have a family of my own, ill bring them there, and they can relive the emotions i felt during the few days i spent there.

People Need Meaning

This is quick thought so i dont forget, ill publish a significantly longer and more detailed aritcle on this later. People need meaning in life, otherwise what are we doing, were dallying around, for what seems like no purpose. Once a goal is found, once theres something to look forward to in the future, then we feel good. Humans seem to look to the future for happyness, its right around the corner they think, if i complete this one “goal” then i’l be happy, basically hope is what keeps them going. But if looking into the future of some event that hasnt yet according is your source of happiness, then you’ll keep striving which is good until the goal is completed, then wheres the meaning. Thats why people after they retire, become bored with life, wheres the purpose anymore, their purpose was working. like John boyd who single handlely changed militay aviation, after he decided to retire this highly active man began to deteriote, his health declined and he simple become bored with life, he lacked a goal, but once he established another goal or purpose, he furiously went back to work, happier then ever. As viktor Frankl said, its not the disease that kills you, its the lack of hope, its when they finally say, why live anymore, thats when the disease sets in and they perish away.

Humans need meaning to life

Music Inspires

i love how music can instantly change my mood, i can instantly go from depressed and sad to incredibly happy from one song, why is this comment me, that would be awesome, does anyone know of any studies done on this matter. I hate getting bored of the song though.

Here’s some songs that make me unusually happy right now

Spare me the Details by Offspring (im currently listening to it)

The Worst Hangover Ever by Offspring

Pressure by Swollen Members

The War of Art Part 1

im in the least possible creative mood right now, i have absoultely no inspiration and i cant seem to formulate a thought of any significance. But as written about the War of Art by Steven Pressfield, you’ve got to keep going, keeping pushing against the resistance thats holding you back from inspiration.

Resistance is that nagging feeling telling you not to do something, push something off until later, why do something now that can easily be done later, that’s resistance according to Pressfield. And if you stop fighting it you die basically speaking.

So im pushing through my horrible writing block right now and just continuing to write. I took a few life changing ideasout of this book.

Following your dreams, giving up that higher paying job for a lower, inconsistant job can be miserable and most likely will be miserable. You’ll be scaveginging for money and you will be miserable. But like a marine who prides themselves in the fact that they can get by using the worst eqiupment, in the worst situations, you to as a “starving artist” must take pride in that poverty, and have that resolution to get by in the worst of situations. Take pride in being miserable.

Ill continue the rest of this post later

welcome to my blog

hey everyone, i created this blog half for myself and half for the random viewer. Sometimes in life i forget my goals, my motivation to pursue my passion/dreams, so im creating this blog to remind me of what my goal is.

Some people make little walls of pictures, notes, thoughts and ideas that keep them on track, this is my little wall open to anyone for now, ill post pictures to inspire myself, favorites books and thoughts on just about anything, whether or not it’s significant in any way. Think of this blog of portal into my life, that’s all.

Lets see where this goes

i listing to patience by guns and roses right now so im feeling pretty sentimental

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