Our Genes are Made Up of Molecular Equivalents of Mounted Trophies

turns out the 8% of our genes our genes are made up of molecular equivalents of mounted trophies, viruses that attacked our ancestors and lost now make up part of our DNA, reminds me of the movie alien vs predator for some reason.

read the article here http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/08/31/AR2008083101759.html?nav=rss_health

Words you Should Know

as part of my vocab challenge for myself, im going to learn everything single word in a book i just got. Its called words you should know by David Olsen, i heard the words are pretty useful in here for today’s standards, so i bought it, now im gonna learn it all. Prepare for an onslaught of super big words

Dissatisfaction

i hooked up with another girl again, for someone reason this isnt as satisfying as it should be, i keep coming up with lame reasons why i was able to hook up with each girl. i keep saying in my head “this was a fluke” you could never do it again, but then i do, and i say the same shit in my head again. Maybe i actually have ‘game’ as they call it.

Once im actually happy with my “game” is when i can talk to any girl without any of that fucked up nagging fear, thats all

I hope everyone knows im not about using girls, its win win for us

next post will definitely have to do with confronting my useless fucking fears

i need to travel

i need to travel, wheres some good places to go

High Everyone 2

fuck this smoking shit, i love it in the moment, but days later i cant even remeber what ive been doing with my life, its fucking done, unless its a social thing aka with a group of people, no getting high with just one buddy, fuck it

High Everyone

Im pretty high write now, hence the proboly not witty title of this post. I’ve been high way to much now, ive had enough, i like it but hate it, i want to get really high write now to the point were im just freaking out like nothing ive ever expiranced before, but lately ive only been getting slightly high, which i dont much like anymore. I want either really high or just nothing, cuz im not high enough, my plan is to get really really fucking high one more time and then stop for a while.

Right now i feel shitty though, i think its a combo of the weed and a constant nagging feeling of doing nothing important with my life lately, i feel like im just waiting, waiting till something good comes, waiting till the right situation hits me and i can flourish. I know this wont happen, but im just waitin still, i need to take action, ultimatly i feel like im just waiting for school, as while i waste away here, at home, either doing nothing or hanging out with friends who just dont satifsy me anymore. I want to meet new people, talk to new people.

This leads to the next post

Note: to perserve my state of writing while high, i have not profread this piece, this is gonna go straight to publish.

Goal – Writing

i feel im a shitty writer, simply said i know i can write much better. The words just dont come to my mind when writing, i know the perfect word, and i remember it starts with a c or something like that, and sounds a certain way, but i cant fucking remember it save my life. I need to learn some more words, i always thought vocab was taught wrong in school. No one realizes how crucial it is to actually know the words, not how to memorize words ten minutes before and then past the test. In hindsight, doing the quick memorization technique might have earned me straight As on the quizzes, but seriously fucked over any chances for increasing my database of knowledge. I feel that a solid vocabulary is essentially in learning and growing, so heres goal number one of this site.

Increase my grossly undernourished knowledge of words

i just signed up for a program that sends a word a day to my email, check it out its awesome
http://wordsmith.org/awad/index.html

I’m also taking other steps to increase my vocabulary challenged lexicon, posting a list of what i believe are crucial words on my mirror, so i can see them every morning as i brush my teeth. Also, I’ve been reading a lot, and actually looking up the words i don’t know. Soon i’ll post my list of essential words that on my mirror on this site.

Other vocab sources

quizlet – online flash card maker ( i love this site)

Provoc – a application for your mac, that helps you learn your vocab, packed with a ton of features, this should help me on my goal too

Filemagnet – an application for the iphone that lets you read uploaded documents from your computer on your iphone. ive been using it just to read papers, and blogs but im going to put vocab words on it and in my free time study from there

Those are my steps so far, what does everyone else do to learn new words?

My Life, Tofino

heres something that inspires me, as a kid my family and i travelled to a place called tofino, it’s a small town in canada right by the ocean. Here solitude and deep thought was as prevalent as the thick rainforests that blanked the area. There was one single, shanty style hotel there, right on the sand, hardly high class accommodations, but thats what made the place. There weren’t many people in the town, in fact it only had a couple of restaurants and tourist attractions. This was more a refuge from the clash of daily life. Here you were hit with a dose of silence, so silent you could here the trees rustling in the wind, seal calls from the ocean, and thousands of crickets chirping throughout the nigh. It was a whole different sort of bliss, a happiness that didn’t involve popularity, having “cool” friends, and getting work done, i would imagine writers would flock to this area, to literally breath in inspiration.

Never in my life had i seen true darkness, although ive traveled significantly, its usually in a bustling city or urban setting, where street lamps and building lights rain throughout the city, here in tofino there were no lights at night, nothing, you couldn’t leave the house without a flashlight, which i loved, it was mystical at my young age. I got the best night of sleep in my life here. When i turned out the single light in my room, i was suffocated by dark, by absolutely nothing, i couldnt even see my hand when it touched my nose, i remember feeling like i had a blanket of darkness on, a weird thought but still true. I sleept so well.

I remember waking up a 5 in the morning for low tide. During low tide , the tide would pull out 2 miles. We could walk around were water would normally be 5 feet high, but at this rare, surreal time in the morning, we could go where no one goes, onto the seabed, where we found an abundance of sea stars, sands dollars, and weird washed up jelly fish, as i kid this was treasure hunt heaven. Time would stop during this point, i’d lose track of the future and the past, and just be in pure bliss.

Memories like this bring me to tears as i am now, knowing that if i returned it probably wouldn’t be the same, i cherish my memories like these, but i know theres more to come, in times of despair i look back and remind myself of moments like these, so beautiful and forever real in my memories, I will go back there one day, maybe when i have a family of my own, ill bring them there, and they can relive the emotions i felt during the few days i spent there.

People Need Meaning

This is quick thought so i dont forget, ill publish a significantly longer and more detailed aritcle on this later. People need meaning in life, otherwise what are we doing, were dallying around, for what seems like no purpose. Once a goal is found, once theres something to look forward to in the future, then we feel good. Humans seem to look to the future for happyness, its right around the corner they think, if i complete this one “goal” then i’l be happy, basically hope is what keeps them going. But if looking into the future of some event that hasnt yet according is your source of happiness, then you’ll keep striving which is good until the goal is completed, then wheres the meaning. Thats why people after they retire, become bored with life, wheres the purpose anymore, their purpose was working. like John boyd who single handlely changed militay aviation, after he decided to retire this highly active man began to deteriote, his health declined and he simple become bored with life, he lacked a goal, but once he established another goal or purpose, he furiously went back to work, happier then ever. As viktor Frankl said, its not the disease that kills you, its the lack of hope, its when they finally say, why live anymore, thats when the disease sets in and they perish away.

Humans need meaning to life

Music Inspires

i love how music can instantly change my mood, i can instantly go from depressed and sad to incredibly happy from one song, why is this comment me, that would be awesome, does anyone know of any studies done on this matter. I hate getting bored of the song though.

Here’s some songs that make me unusually happy right now

Spare me the Details by Offspring (im currently listening to it)

The Worst Hangover Ever by Offspring

Pressure by Swollen Members